What comes out of a mans mouth! at Sunday, June 17, 2007

we have struck again. The Bible says that your Tongue is the most powerful weapon a man has.

Behold! GTC's very own Oscar(sirzombie) and joel(virtualchameleon) presents What comes out of a mans mouth!

Test or quizz?? at Monday, June 04, 2007

How well do you know GTC?

Wasted as we are, we have absolutely nothing else to do and nothing to write about… AND Oscar keeps complaining how this blog has become almost defunct, so we have decided to write a quiz on how well you know the GTC. As the French would say ,”Ce n’est pas un test, s’il vous plait. C’est un quiz sur la GTC” (Eat your heart out, Alliance Francaise, Bon Appetite!!). You will write down your answers on a word document which can be sent to any of the following e-mail addresses: parryshams@yahoo.com; virtualchameleon23@yahoo.com;or ebenzz@gmail.com; (P.S. don’t send it to Oscar). We will tabulate your scores and post them as comments here. Detailed reports will be available at a nominal fee of 5/- Rs, payable to anyone of the above people (not Oscar, Again). Please don’t be a cheat-ter. (if you got this joke, you will stand a good chance of doing well)

AND SO IT BEGINS (please use HB pencils)

PART I: ANSWER IN BRIEF

Q.1 What does GTC stand for? (3 marks)

Q.2 Who are the founding members of GTC? (5 marks) (Automatic fail if you cant answer this)

Q.3 Who are the honorary members of GTC? (5 marks)

Q.4 Who is the GTC mascot? (2 mark) *Where did we find the mascot? (bonus 2 marks)

Q.5 Who are the oldest and youngest members of GTC? (2 marks)
Q.6 Who is the only female member for GTC? (5 marks)

Q.7 When was GTC formed? (2 marks) *Where? (bonus 2 marks)

Q.8 Name GTC’s retail outlet? (5 marks)

Q.9 Find the invisible question and answer it. (10 marks)

Q.10 Who is the butt of all jokes in GTC? (1 mark…… you know who…… and no its not voldermort)

PART II: ODD MAN OUT

Proceed only if you managed to answer Q.2

1 mark per correct answer

The only member who:

· Hasn’t been in a relationship

· Went to a different school (bonus 5 marks for naming both the schools)

· Hasn’t flown in a plane

· Is the oldest sibling

· Doesn’t have an MTNL triband connection

· Doesn’t have a set of wheels

· Does not have a guitar

· Has had stitches (bonus 5 marks for guessing where)

· Has never represented their school in sports

· Has maximum nicknames (bonus 2 marks knowing how many, and ¼ mark for each name)

· Plays more than one instrument

· Has had the most run-ins with college professors (bonus 2 marks for guessing how many and 5 marks for naming them)

· Doesn’t have a cell phone

· Has gone for the same movie 2 days in a row

· Has had a job (wasting time doesn’t not count)

· Hasn’t dated someone from college

· Is vegetarian (by choice)

· Doesn’t live in IC

· Has been inside a submarine

· Has been in a car-roll….. do you even know what a car-roll is?

· Has alcohol in his cupboard (You know it’s the goan)

· Had a pigtail

· Is not on Orkut (-2 if you get this wrong)

· Is not on Facebook

· Hasn’t had music lessons

· Doesn’t understand technical jargon

PART III: OPINION POLL

This part has no marks, but is a performance survey on the GTC members:

Q.1 Most likely to be in a bar brawl

Q.2 Most likely to get married first

Q.3 Most likely to be a victim of road rage

Q.4 Least likely to get married

Q.5 Member you like the most (why don’t you like the rest… huh? huh?)

Q.6 Least Approachable

Q.7 Most Approachable

Q.8 Most likely to do an item number

Q.9 Most Eligible guy

Q.10 Worst dressed

Q.11 Most likely to be hen-pecked

Q.12 Most stubborn

Q.13 Hardest to find

Q.14 Most likely to say “HUH?” after a joke

Q.15 Last to know anything

Q.16 Worst singer

Q.17 Most likely to be famous

Q.18 Most likely to run the Mumbai Marathon

Q.19 Least likely to run the Mumbai Marathon

Q.20 Most likely to look good in pink…… this is NOT a joke

Q.21 Earliest to start losing hair

Q.22 Most likely to get a tan done

Q.23 Most likely to get a tattoo

Q.24 Most secretive person

Q.25 Most likely to end up in jail

We hereby declare this blog defunct….. NOT ce n’est pas possible…… something like that only.

Rules and Regulations: Members of GTC and their family members(upto 3^rd generation) are not allowed to participate competitively in this ……umm... test?!

Chopsuey! at Saturday, March 24, 2007

Before I begin, this has nothing to do with the System of a Down hit of the same name, nor does it have anything to do with what Josh, Oscar and Adley ate today at Ingredients.Well it actually does but what the heck! The name comes from what I was telling Joel when I read Chopsuey on the menu. I told him that SOAD named their song "Chopsuey" because it was 3-4 different lyrics put together into one song like a chopsuey. I must admit that the title struck me after I was done writing the whole post. I mean since the post is made of random quotes and excerpts I picked up from TV, music and the internet....the title is so...Now read on...

Here are some evergreen words...

Staind - Schizophrenic Conversations

"...Are you afraid,

Afraid of the truth,

The mirror's staring back at you,

The image is cracked,

But so is the view..."

Jerry Seinfeld on his show 'Seinfeld'

" You know when you're moving, you have only one thing on your mind....BOXES. You can be at the best restaurant enjoying a meal but all you can think of is boxes. You'll be like, I know you've got boxes in there, dont tell me you dont! I can smell them dammit! You can be at a funeral and you'll be like...hmm neat box, good wood panelling, nice handles....I can put all my stuff in there.

Come to think of it, dying is the last big move you make. Think about it, the pall-bearers are like the friends you can ask for help to carry your stuff, and the coffin is like that one perfect box you've looked for all the time...except for the fact that when you find it...YOURE IN IT!!"

Daron Malakian - Lead Guitars and Backing Vox - System of a Down

Gist of what he said on SOAD winning a grammy

"Grammys dont matter to us...I mean, you get an idea, you work on it, you make a song, you get it on an album and on radio for people, you play it live for them and if they love it, thats all that matters. Grammys are just a by product. Theyre a by-product and not an end in themselves. We didnt even go to recieve our grammys. They sent it to my house in a box, its still lying there. I havent even opened it yet."

Lyrics from Train's Album 'For Me, Its You'

All I Ever Wanted
"You were my ticket outta here
And I was your dream come true
You gave me everything I ever wanted
Except for you"

"Explanation"

"What's your favorite color, your sign
Your basic sense of style and date of birth

Who's gonna win your heart and when your heart's been won
And when your hearts been won is it still your daddy first"

Dr.Cox from 'Scrubs' talking about relationships.

'All couples face the same problems. The real ones don't let them bring them down and wade through all of that crap.'

Excerpts from 'Cheers'

Scene : Bar-owner Rebecca Howe's boyfriend, multi-millionaire Robin Colcord is cheating on her with 2 other women. Sam, the previous owner of the bar and a good friend of Rebecca convinces her to break up with him. Robin tries to compensate for cheating on Rebecca by gifting her a diamond bracelet.

Rebecca (after looking at the bracelet) to Sam - (mouths) Its gorgeous.

Sam frantically waves his arms telling her not to fall for it...

Robin to Rebecca : 'I like your principles. The other girl from the French embassy would have lapped it up in a second. I really like it that you stood by your morals. I have to say, out of the two of you, I think youre definitely ahead. Now I must leave....care to join me. (walks out).

Rebecca to Sam: (confused for a second, then jumps up and down) Sam cant you see Im winning....Robin, Im coming...(runs after Robin)

Sam: 'Wait a second Rebecca, your giving up something here thats you're gonna regret for the rest of your life.

Rebecca: (thinks for a second) Youre right....Robin I'll take the bracelet!!'

From Frank Millers Graphic Novel '300'

Scene: Xerxes is trying to convince King Leonidas to surrender to him after the latters army successfully fought off the first battalion of Xerxes' finest guards The Immortals.

Xerxes: Your kingdom and mine could share our cultures with each other.

Leonidas: Well, we've been sharing our culture with your men all day!

And finally excerpts from a chat between Joel and me...

Me: Joshua's coming for the movie tomorrow too. I think he's gonna meet some girl at the theater!

Joel : *Rolls eyes*

Me: Hey we'll show him.....I'll just call....umm, uhh....Ill call....umm....joe you got anyone?

Joel: I could call her but....oh then theres that girl who, no but.....and then theres the other one too...umm...

Me: Hmm I guess we could call that one....but.....naah!

Joel : LOL, looks like we have no options.

Me: No no, we're single out of choice...

Joel: Yeah!

Me: Yeah, we're single, because we are out of choices...

Mixed Thoughts at Wednesday, March 14, 2007

If its one thing that I strongly believe, it is that human beings are not meant to be single. Go ahead refute me if you want to, I still stand by my belief. And I see myself under the same category. Over the years Ive gone from single to committed, to single to committed, to hating being single and finally experimenting and having fun with being single. Ill admit Im having fun now, but thats going to die out in a while, sooner or later everyone needs someone to love and I feel no different.

I have no idea what relation the above paragraph has to the rest of the post but I felt like writing that anyway...

Another year of college passed us by today. I kept telling everyone how I got that distinct 'season-finale of a sitcom' feeling all day. The last two years have always ended on a happy note, actually a high note. This year I was happy, but except for a few things here and there, it was pretty much an ordinary day.(Note quite the most memorable season finale Id say!). I realised the following things today (damn this is starting to sound like an answer paper!).

Firstly, it started to hit me that my TY friends wont be there anymore and today was probably one of the last days (or perhaps the last time) I see them in college. Secondly, the person that I was when I entered FY in June last year and the person that I am right now are different no doubt, but over time Ive seen that the core remains the same which is quite a reassuring factor. I thought that the equations I shared with all my friends were changed for the worse this year, but towards the end, it fell back into place. Also one of the most striking things is the new group of friends that I made this year. I kept looking at all of us today, as individuals and as a group and I realized that we were a varied bunch of individuals, who get along like a house on fire inspite of the differences in personality. Also hanging out with each other has not made us similar people, in fact we have become more distinct as individuals. But the important factor is that we accept each others differences.

Well, okay, coming back to the being single part.Over the past few months, Ive learnt to value committment (in my case that would mean not being too comfortable with it). My bro getting married has had a lot to do with this. Apart from the fact that I AM NOT looking forward to sitting on a horse in the middle of the road with a 5 kg helmet on my head while a bunch of bad dancers jump around me for atleast a decade, I also came to realise the fact that none of my relationships ever reached the level my brother's relationship has. Believe me its nothing to do with age here, its about finding that one person for you and being that one person for someone. Much as I would like to believe I havent found someone who did that for me at that level and neither did I. So I know I still have a long way to go when it comes to finding the right person.

Waiting for that person gets really unnerving at times. Actually most of the times to be honest. Eye-candy, crushes, casual dates, flings and the likes can only amuse you till a point, but when you realise that nothings going anywhere with any of the girls you like, it can be pretty bugging. Oscar and the others at 'the family' think I'll be the first one from the group to be married. They always thought of me as the committed type, and until recently I thought so too. Of course, now I want to experiment and have fun being single (all in a good way though). So well, Ive got 3 months of vacation ahead of me, lets see who I find and what I do.....cant wait, hope something happens soon. Till the, I guess Ill just have fun!

Maybe this waiting thing isnt so bad after all, takes some getting used to, but as long you have fun along the way and not get too pulled down by loneliness its fine....

Anyhoo, Ill scoot for now, bring on the comments please!

New Blog... at Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Well, Ive made myself a wordpress blog, its basically gonna be parallel to the GTC blog ( you will find all the posts Ive made here and your comments on them over there), but the only difference is that its just my blog, whereas GTC is a team blog (although u see me posting here most of the time). Im gonna post everything that I post there over here as well, Ive made a category here called Introspective Paz which will feature, as the name suggests my introspective stuff. All I need is for Oscar to update our theme so theres a sidebar which displays that category. Heres the link to my other blog...
Just Pazz...
See Ya here and there too!

From Memory Lane to Today.... at Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Well this post came to my mind a couple of nights ago when I suddenly woke up and couldn't get any sleep after that. While I was awake, my mind for some reason took me to my tenth standard picnic in Mahableshwar. I remember how I had a photo album of the trip (which I think Ive misplaced/ forgotten to take back from Velina.) So well there I was, lying wide awake in bed with the whole photo album flashing before my eyes like a Flickr slideshow or something. I started thinking about things back then. How I was, what kind of friends I had etc etc. Well come to think of it, I was in a room with 13 people (the rule allowed 5 but we got 8 more ppl in since we wanted all our 'friends' there), but not a single one could really be called a friend. I mean I never hung out with them besides school, never called them for anything other than school related stuff, and never really opened up to any of them. The trip was fun, a whole lot of fun. I remember how so many of my classmates started talking to me coz I was suddenly 'cool' according to them (for the simple reason that I didnt try to be cool like everyone else). And the one's who were friends already started to act like we were brothers or something (because they wanted to be tagged cool too). My teacher thought I was going bad, because I wore a cap backwards and wore shades and stuff (not at the same time) and started talking to 'bad' students. Goes to show how immature people were in judging each other during school years. Teachers too tag you as a saint or a devil child based on their own limited perception of what you are. When in fact you are neither. I remember hwo my class teacher was all disappointed in me because I had changed. I used to think for a while that Im a bad guy too, but then I just realized I was who I was all along, just that she got acquainted with me then.
Around the same time, I met my first girlfriend ( who was my first crush at that time). I remember how she too thought I was 'cool' and 'different' and 'cute' because unlike most other guys, I didnt try to hit on the girls, I didnt dress to impress and I looked like I didnt really care what people thought of me. I, in turn, thought she was the best thing that ever happened to me. We went on to have almost a year and a half long relationship, before she realized she wasnt on the same level as I was when it came to relationships. Amazing how she went from being 'the one' to almost a stranger today. Its been 2 and a half years since we broke up, in that time I had another year long relationship, but still when I see her, she looks at me with a level of awkwardness. I dont know whether the relationship or the break up is relevant anymore, I was a totally different person then and so was she. For crying out loud she was 15 when we got together. But its amazing how today even though Im 19 and not even a shadow of who I used to be, we cant have a decent fone convo like to 2 mature people. Once again, I guess she isnt on the same level of maturity. The reason why she even comes up in this post today despite all we've been through is because she was the first real friend I had. The first person who actually opened up to me and the first person I opened up to. And regardless of what happened with the relationship that means a lot to me and will always.
Coming into college, I made one of my best friends (who continues to be the same) Oscar. He and I have practically grown up together over the last 3 years. When I first met him, his hair was a disaster and so was mine, though we thought differently back then. He thought he'd never find someone to love (which he did later) and I thought Id never lose the one I loved (which I did later). We had a bunch of 'friends' too, but I guess they too didnt go beyond the level of friendship that I shared with the 13 random guys who crashed in my room at the picnic back in school. In SYJC, I became part of the group which we today call the Gangue Team Crew, which consists of some of the closest friends Ive ever made: Joel, Eben, Binoy, Oscar and Adley. I also became friends with Christine (I think Ive written enough abt her). Well things have changed with time, I dont know if everyone feels the same level of closeness that we once used to. We dont hang out like we used to, everyone is busy with something or the other (Im no exception). But despite all of that I'd like to tell you guys that you still are just as important to me as you were back then, actually you mean more now, and I hope that we havent grown apart while growing up. Its true things feel different when we hang out, but different in a good way none the less.
Another person Id like to write about is Ishrat. Im not going to talk about how I met her and what she did etc etc. Im gonna talk about how she has been an important part of me growing up. From talking randomly in college to speaking for hours on end on the fone to going on double dates to being there for each other when we were hurting to not being in contact for god knows why to being back in contact and closer than ever to god knows what else in the future. I guess she's been there at my highest and my lowest and the same goes for me. I love the connection I share with her, and few understand me the way she does. God knows what I did to have an awesome friend like you.
I think for the first time in all these years Im gonna write something for Velina too. Velina and I met on the first day of college in FYJC. We exchanged glances but that was it, I didnt actually get a chance to hang out with her till a couple of months later. I remember her telling me she used to like me till she found out I was dating my ex. She and I had a helluva lot of fun in FYJC times and I really wish I could go back to those days. I knew she always loved me and I knew that always did too, so the relationship with her was bound to happen. It did and it was one of the happiest times Ive seen. It was beautiful while it lasted, and like all good things it ended too. Ive seen pretty faces after she went away, I met a few interesting girls too, but I havent clicked with anyone the way we used to. And well till I find someone who does come upto that level, Im gonna stay single. The relationship with her taught me a lot, believe me it did, and thanks to it I know what to look for in an ideal partner ( or atleast I think I do). After what we had, I wont compromise for anything lesser. Thanks for everything we had, and everything that we have right now despite all the history.
This year (2006-07), I spent a majority of my time with my new friends Amu, Noella and Poornima and the rest of the 'family' (which didnt exactly go down well with my older friends). Well, regardless my old friends still mean a lot to me and I still love them. The 'family' and I have had some insane times together, we too have had our highs and lows. But from being a group in michelle's lit. class to an inseperable bunch we sure have come a long way. And well we still do have a long way to go, but Im looking forward to every bit of it.
Last and definitely not the least Id like to mention Divya. She isn't a familiar name to everyone I guess. She used to write on this blog a long time ago as the 'Deetster'. Dee is one of the closest friends I have, and I really dont know how to define my friendship with her and its best that I dont, because no one would really understand it besides the two of us. All Im gonna say is that you are one of the most important people in my life and I really dont know how else to put it.
All the friends that Ive mentioned above have seen different shades of me in different times. Some know the current me, some think they know the current me, some arent around as much now, some arent even around anymore, but in their own time and place they have all been special to me and have been instrumental in me growing up into whatever I am today.
Thanks a lot for everything we've shared and everything we will share in the future. I may not be the same person I was, but change isnt always a bad thing now is it?
Am gonna end this post now. This post sure brought back a lot of memories for me, and I hope it does the same for you, and if it does, please acknowledge it with a comment. It would mean a lot to me...
Thanks a lot...
Paras

To Christine... at Wednesday, February 07, 2007

As a going-away present for you, I wanted to write you something personal, but I wanted everyone else to see what a great friend you've been. So well this is what I came up with...Hope you like it! 'My first memory of you dates back to my late FYJC days, I saw you one day dragging Sam to the Lipton Ice Tea counter, pestering him to get you an Ice Cream. I was with Oscar and you greeted me with a trademark (loud as usual) 'Hiee!'. Back then I used to know you as 'that loud girl with Sam'. I remember how shocked I was when someone told me you were Justin's sister. I mean there was Justin who was quiet as anything and then there you were, pushing the decibel levels each day. I got to know you better through Eben and I guess we became good friends sometime when I was in SYJC (somewhere between all those train rides and crazy canteen encounters). Ive tormented you a lot over the last two years and thoroughly enjoyed it. Im sure you'll fondly remember each 'Cha Mailaa' and 'Sodnaar Nahi'. (well maybe not fondly, but atleast you'll remember it). Livewire 2005 gave me an opportunity to witness what an awesome voice you had. And although you looked out of place with the pink outfit (Metallica feat. Britney Spears as i called it), you were absolutely awesome. With you around there's never a dull moment. You're truly contagious, if you're happy you'll make sure everyone around you has a fun time as well and as hard as you may try, when you're feeling blue, it more or less affects everyone else. You're a really bad liar (almost as bad as Oscar lol), and are as curious as a 3 yr old....wait arent you a 3 yr old? Christine is strong, smart, talented and caring and a genuinely loving person. Sure she has her flaws too, but who doesnt!We love you just as you are (braces included). She gets really uncomfortable around people who are fighting and will try her best to diffuse the tension at the slightest hint of an arguement. She can get sensitive and panicky sometimes, but she tries her best not to inconvenience anyone when she's feeling like that. She forgives people really quickly ( a bit too quickly sometimes) and really gets attatched to her friends. Her blog, though not always, Contagious Joy, is a pleasure to read. She really accepts her mistakes readily and is always open to learn. As you step into the big world, I wish you all the best for all that life has in store for you. Dont change the person you are, but try to be street-smart, not everyone is as nice as you are. Its going to be impossible to replace you in college, the noise levels wont ever be the same again. But as much as we'll miss you, we want you to go out into the world and excel in everything you do. Hope we still get to hang out and be crazy like the old times. Just wanna say that I wish I had more time so I could get to know you better than I already do. Sorry for anything that I may have done to hurt you intentionally or unintentionally. I truly 'louve' you!'
Paras.

3 Years Already? at Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Here's an article I wrote for our College Magazine 'The Wilsonian'

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Its amazing how Wilson College, (a place that I didn’t even know existed till one of my cousins told me about it) has become an inseparable part of my life over the last 3 years. Back in 2004, I like many of my peers wished to join St. Xavier’s College and it seemed to me as if nothing else could impress me. But with Wilson’s it was love at first sight. One look at the great stone structure poised bang opposite the beach and Xavier’s was went flying off my wish-list. I had made my mind Wilson’s was the place for me! The first two years of college though memorable passed by before I knew it. When it was time decide where I wanted to do my Bachelors degree, I didn’t even think twice before picking Wilson’s.

Considering that I had practically spent most of the last two years in college, I thought that I had seen all that was to be seen at this institution. But this time around I was to see a totally different side of Wilson’s. I was thrown off balance on the first day itself when I could not manage to spot a single familiar face in class. To add to my confusion, the time table pointed to previously unheard of classrooms such as M-1 and M-2 (which I later discovered were at Mackichan Hall).Another major hurdle for me was the early morning timings. I being a staunch follower of Garfield loved each and every minute of my morning sleep, but failure to attend would result in a dreaded ATKT and I had already heard one too many horror stories about that rule to take any chances with it. The next two months were spent acclimatizing to the new setting. By the time we reached the terminal exams, I was attending college on auto-pilot. For the first time in over 2 years, I went for one whole term without bunking college to go for a movie (quite an achievement considering my run-ins with the attendance rule over the last two years). But like they say every dark cloud has a silver lining. In my case, the silver lining came in the form of the new friends I made in class. God knows how I would have made it through without them.

By the time the first term exams ended, we were all ready to enjoy our much needed break. But within the first week of the vacation I was dying to go back to college. After what seemed like a never ending October, I came back for Term 2 of FYBA. Fortunately, there were fewer lectures and more events which meant that it was time to celebrate! Friendship day, Tie day, Traditional day, Bazaar day and God knows what else. All we needed was an excuse to celebrate. After a month full of celebration inside and outside college, it was time for the Christmas holidays (which came and went by before one could say ‘Merry Xmas’). And now, unbelievable as it may seem another year is about to end.

The year has definitely been the most memorable I have spent at this institution. The memories I take back are as varied as Prof. Randeria’s early morning psychology lectures to making clay frogs till the late hours for the Nature Club exhibition.

With three down and two more years to go, I can’t even begin to imagine what Wilson’s holds for me in the next two years. But the previous years have taught me to expect the unexpected. So I guess Ill wait and watch while this wonderful institution surprises me…yet again!

Walk On! at Thursday, January 11, 2007

"For the Last year and a half
I walked out on familiar faces
Had to cut some losses
Learned to never be complacent" *

I was walking the other day, my mind fixated on everything else but the road. Where I was going, why I was headed that a way, and was I even on the right path seemed irrelevant for the time being. I walked on, without a single familiar face in sight. Had everyone else left me behind or had I walked too far ahead without realising there was no one behind me? I couldnt tell anymore, frankly I couldnt care lesser. My only two constant companions were silence and obscurity. And to be honest with 'friends' like those two, who needs anything else? A few people approached me saying that they knew me. I couldnt recognise them anymore. At times their voices sounded familiar but their faces were unknown. On other occassions, I waited for God knows how long for the voiceless familiar faces to say or do something. What was going on? Was I dreaming? Or was this my nightmare coming alive? Whatever it was I couldnt face it. I ran, ran with all my remaining strength. Till I finally ran out of energy. I could no longer run. The road started spinning and 360 degrees of blurred images were in my face. I somehow held myself together to see a fresh batch of friendly faces. Maybe things would change now....maybe

"The world can be so cold
When you step into the unknown
The streets all look familiar
That just multiplies the danger" *

With my new found companions I gallantly marched into the unknown. I didnt have anything to go back to anyway. These guys were all I had now and they didnt look like the types who would desert me. Soon enough we hit a roadblock. To move ahead I had to cross a river. A raging one, which looked like it meant business.
I said to myself, 'No way on earth am I going to make it across this one." but my posse said that I could if I tried.
"But I dont even know how to swim guys. What if I drown or something?"
"Move on" they told me.
"I'm in no hurry of killing myself . Theres so much I want to see and do. I'm not risking my future over this!"
"Dont worry about the future, it will come soon enough. Dont worry about the past, you can't change it anyway. Whatever happened, happened for the best. Be thankful that you are still standing and move on. We're right behind you." Thus saying they pushed me in without warning. I was barely able to keep my head above water, but they said, "Nothing will go wrong trust us!"
Yeah right! Easy for you to say, Im the one splashing around with no idea whether I will stay afloat or go under, Not you. And you say trust us? How can you even have any idea what Im facing when your not even with me a 100%? Stop kidding yourself! Kind words dont save a drowning man, a helping hand might do the trick. But it seemed like they didnt even want to listen. They thought they had done all that they needed to do. With their respective consciences no longer at loggerheads with them, they walked away certain that they'd 'played their parts well'.


"I found that true friends may be
The ones you rarely hear from
Cause many said they'd be here
But now they can't be found" *

What? Where did they disappear? They were right here a second ago, egging me on and now they were gone? But how could it be? This time I knew for sure that I had trusted the right people. Did I do something wrong to anger them? Or did I trust the wrong people again? No no, that couldnt be. These guys were for real, they wouldnt leave me at a time like this. They'll be back soon enough. I just have to be a bit patient and a bit more optimistic. But for now, I need to get across this river before it sucks me in.

"Looked right into the mirror
Face down all my fears
I will rise above!" *

Throwing all my fears aside for that moment, I decided to face the river head on! And surprisingly enough I made it through. Imagine! My worst fear was realized and I faced it and lived to tell it. No longer was I a slave to my fears. I excitedly looked around to share the news with my companions, but they never showed up. Once again I asked myself, did they leave me behind or did I move ahead too fast? Thus I walked on all alone yet again with no idea where I was going. I stopped and thought to myself. "Whoa! Ive come so far ahead. The enemies in my past must be so far behind now that they arent even a relevant threat anymore. Anyway, they couldnt scare me, I already fought down my worst fears. And if I walk ahead long enough, Im sure Ill find new companions just like the last time!Why then am I afraid of being alone, afraid that more dangers may await me, afraid of not knowing where I am headed or whether or not I will ever find my destination? Where did these questions come from anyway? I was just pointlessly walking along, wasnt I? Well I guess thats what I'll do then! Just keep moving ahead. Thats all Ive been asked to do, everything else is a perk or a momentary discomfort. But isnt it all part of the journey?" I smiled and shook my head, what I thought of as just a walk had taught me so much, yet it taught me nothing I didnt already know. I mean after all, all I had to do was walk!

"Never Mind.....Forget it
Just Memories...On a Page Inside a Spiral Notebook" ^

* Lyrics from 'Rise Above' by Adema from the album 'Planets'.
^ Lyrics from 'Forget It' by Breaking Benjamin from the album 'We Are Not Alone'

New Post in a New Year! at Friday, January 05, 2007

Ladies and Gentlemen, Boys and Girls, Children of all ages. Happy New Year to everyone. Hope everyone has a great year ahead....yada yada yada. Lets get back to more important things viz. my post. Yup, so lets begin where we last left off...'Hopes and Fears'....hmm well, that was a while back and allow me to fill all of you in between what happened from then to now if I may.....

So what did I do all December? No seriously, WHAT DID I DO ALL DECEMBER? I didnt even realise I was gone for over a month. But anyway let me begin to attempt to recollect. Hmm for starters winter finally began to kick in and boy were we thankful for it after extended October heat. Well lets begin with Tie and Saree Day that is if I remember the whole day correctly. And motivational speaker Nick Vujicic visited our college and delivered a simple talk to us. No 14 day 'Change your life' plans, no self-advertisement...nothing of that sort! He just narrated his own story without asking for any pity or sympathy, and well he doesnt need any. He's more resilient than most of us 'normal people' put together. Hats off to you Nick, your talk helped me through one of my hard times. You're talk made me realise how trivial my troubles were and despite everything else, there is still an abundance of love on earth. That aside we took like a thousand pictures on that day and had tonnes of fun. Yours truly got a compliment or two as well. Thanks a lot to all my 'admirers' whoever and wherever you are (*wink wink*).
Hmm well, what next you ask....Well we continued to have fun in college with all our friends.
On December 8, we had 'Club Nite' in college, and we all danced, yes we all danced, even Oscar and I danced. We really had a blast and that set the tone for the rest of the month which had tonnes of parties in it, but still not enough.
'The family' as we like to call ourselves is had a great time all December and despite the fact that most of us (in other words except for Amu) are single and bored of it, we had a blast in the holiday season!

Random Classifieds Ad
'The Family' needs single guys and girls from ages 18-21 who meet the following requirements:
Requirements for guys:Should be cute, Should be nice, should be SINGLE, should not ask for committment, and should not be any of the things that may or may not be mentioned here. (Hope that helps).
Requirements for girls: Should be pretty, should be responsive (dont make us guys do all the work now), should be successful to capture our attention for more than a week, should be atleast five feet four inches tall, should not be either too comfortable with committment nor too shy.

Also not to mention, selection is at the sole discretion of 'The Family' if anyone does not approve of you, you will be thrown out. You have to get everyone and I mean everyone to like you.

Anyway, classifieds aside. Lets continue, I went for like 3 Xmas parties, one at YMCA, the other at Amu, Noe and Rohit's church and the third wasnt an Xmas party it was Noella's Bday. She turned 18 and we gave her enough reasons to remember the day. Like for example we bought in two complete strangers to sing 'Happy Birthday' for her.
Speaking of Xmas gifts, I got the following gifts:
1) A DVD of The Newsboys (which I still havent watched).
2) 13 of my favorite CDs courtesy my Aunt in the USA.
3) A pass to the Delirious? Concert from Christine.
4) Another Cake from Oscar as a gift (I still dont call it a gift).

In other news my cousin brother came down from the USA after 2 years and his younger brother left for the USA for a year lol. Talk about musical chairs.
I was down with an upset tummy for a couple of days in the last week of December and then finally came New Years. For the second year in a row, my new year began in Oscar's church (well it was a different church). And after listening to the worship band play 'Rain Down' by Delirious? for the umpteenth time we headed to Andheri station at 1 am in the nite and caught the last official train for the night at 1.40 am. There was a full on party inside the compartment, and it was really a sight you can see only in Mumbai! After the train ride, we headed to Samantha's (aka Sam the disprin addict) place for a party, which featured more dancing (including the now famous Oscar's Nagin Dance Step), and embarassing games (such as Ducky Ducky and 'Poor Pussy' to name a few). Another fun time, and a great way to ring in the new year. We also met a 'pirate' called Captain Jack and his wench (also called Wife). The crew (us) was supposed to have a party at Captain Jack's deck but since we were too tired we decided to take a hike instead. Also the captains wifey was ready to make him walk the plank if he forced us to dance anymore.
That brings us to January, on the 3rd it was Poornima's 19th Birthday. WE had a nice lunch at her place courtesy her mom, and had a lot of lets say interesting conversations. Happy Birthday Poornima!
Yesterday we went to Letty's place, and yes there was more dancing (fortunately no Oscar Nagin Dance this time, neither did I dance). After that we played in Letty's garden and had a flashback to childhood. Here are somethings I realised yesterday:
1) Jiving makes most girls dizzy.
2) Noella loves carpets.
3) Letty has an awesome place.
4) I can swing really high!
5) I suck a little lesser but still a lot at Table Tennis.
6) No matter how old you get, you will still hurt yourself at a garden.
7) See-Saws should come with seat-belts.
8) None of us are really as old as we should be!

That brings me to the present day. I woke up late this morning and decided to skip college. I did practically nothing today, went for a meeting in the evening and now Im making a post abt all that I did in the last month or so.
I know theres a lot I covered (and a lot I missed too)...so heres a recap and after that the credits.
Okay, here goes...
Tie day, club nite, christmas parties, Noella's bday, classifieds ads, new years, poornimas bday and letty's place...thats all we covered.
Other imp. stuff......
I had a crush but now its gone and Im still single...YAY (Yawn). Everyone else I know is still single, and the ones in relationships are still in relationships. I shopped all my outfits for my bro's wedding and hmm yea thats about all I want to cover now.

Credits:
Special Thanks To:
The Gangue Team Crew ( Oscar,Joel,Bintu,Eben,Adley and Me).
'The Family' (Amu, Noe,Poornima,Sam,Su,Letty,Rohit,Osci, Georgie and Me).
College Pplz.
Chaddi aka Christine.
Divya aka Dee (for putting up with me this long).
And everyone else who I havent mentioned.

Love y'all...
See ya,
Pazz

Are You Unforgiven Too? at Friday, January 05, 2007

Well for once I'm going to say nothing and the let the lyrics do the talking.

Song: The Unforgiven II.
Artist: Metallica.

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you

Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
(So I dub thee unforgiven)

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known!

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free
Never me
'Cause you're unforgiven too!
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After All Said and Done
I Dub Thee 'Forgiven'